I want to find love like Carl and Ellie have in the movie "Up". I think it is what every person actually dreams of. I believe that we are all in search of that person that helps to make us feel complete - whole. While I am constantly trying to come to terms with the fact that I may never find that one special someone - I never actually stop hoping that it is in the cards for me. I try to convince myself that I don't need another person in order to feel fully happy - but I am in essence lying to myself. I think that human beings are inherently social by nature and therefore cannot REALLY be satisfied with life if they are on their own. I do enjoy my own company - in fact I crave it at times, but overall I am a happier, easier person to be with when I feel wanted, needed and loved. 

This brings me to my present predicament...I AM alone - I don't have anybody in my life - and I am lonely. There...I said it. I AM LONELY. And I want to stop feeling lonely. I want the stars to align so that I can find the man I am supposed to be with and we can start our lives together. I want the world to show me that everyone can find true love, if they are patient...I want a soulmate who cares when I am feeling down and rejoices when I am feeling happy. I want someone to grow old with - someone that I can talk to and laugh with for hours on end, or sit and say nothing at all but still be blissfully content. I want to find my lobster....

Kx

Grassi Lake Trail

Today I set out for Canmore to meet up with Neil and Alanna. They invited me to join them for a hike at Grassi Lakes. The weather was great and the hike was beautiful. Everytime I get out of the city to do something like that I wonder why I don't do it more often. 

The hike was a challenge for me and reminded me how out of shape I am. I was glad that they were both so supportive of a slow pace today. It is always a little daunting joining people on an outing like that when you are of different fitness levels. I never want to feel like the person that is holding other people back. There was a fairly steep incline at points, but the payoff was worth it! The lakes are a brilliant shade of turquoise and that was my first opportunity to see water like that up close. Absolutely stunning views and great company too. It was definitely a busy spot - lots of people out and about, but the nice thing was that the chirping of the birds filled the air more than any human sounds - that was a treat!

After the hike we headed down into Canmore for a drink and a snack. All in all, a perfect summer day!

Kx

And So It Begins.

Because I seem to spend more time with a computer than a pen these days, I thought I would start a blog rather than another paper journal. It is my hope that I can remain a little more consistent with addressing my thoughts this way than I have been when trying to write things down. I have started so many written journals over the years that I turn to regularly for a couple of weeks and then they disappear into oblivion. This blog may suffer the same fate, but it is worth a shot to see how I do. 

I am currently on summer holidays and it is a glorious day outside. I spent most of my day exploring areas just outside of Calgary and enjoying the nice weather. We have had pretty dismal weather so far this year so I have been trying to get outside as much as possible. It is funny how we moan and whine about the horrible weather and then when it IS nice outside, people still seem to hangout indoors. I have been guilty of this many times myself so I am making a concerted effort this year to get outdoors. 

This is the second random day trip that I have taken in  a week. It is nice to have the freedom and the resources to just head out and see where the day takes you. The only thing I wish is that I had company when I take off for the day. Summer as a teacher is great, but it can get a little lonely when everyone else you know is either working or travelling. It feels weird to go from the hustle and bustle of activity that I see for 10 months of the year to having days where I actually don't speak to anyone. I enjoy my quiet time, but I am inherently a people person and long for human interaction. Well - I have an excellent weekend planned so that should remedy my complaints!

Kx